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Score 3 for the guilt

Today my baby screamed so hard that his whole face was bright red, tears rolled down his chubby cheeks into his ears and he could be consoled for only about a minute at a time before he started crying again.

And I walked out the door and went to work.

Noah got his first set of shots this morning, something he was clearly not pleased about. But he settled down fairly easily and even dozed off on the way home.

I gave him Tylenol, as our doctor suggested, and put him down for a nap at home. And he slept for several hours. But when he woke up, he was miserable. Inconsolable. Off-the-charts loud and clearly in pain.

Nana -- that's Damon's mom -- is staying with us this week, so she was trying to calm him as I came down the stairs to go to work. Even though she has 55 years of experience taking care of kids, I, of course, felt that only I could make my baby feel better, so I snatched him.

And I did a pretty good job, I must say. I got him to eat, and I found a combination of tricks that seemed to soothe him for brief periods at least. But the half-hour I spent doing that was a half-hour when I should have been driving to work.

I finally had to hand him over to Nana and leave. And as I walked out the door, he screamed and screamed.

I know he's sleeping now and he's fine, but, damn, do I feel awful. All I want to do is go home and hold him. I forgot how hard these first weeks back can be.

How do you handle being away from your young children if you work outside the home?

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