January 16:
Anxious, as defined by Webster's Dictionary, is "troubled in mind or worried at some uncertain matter or event."
For the past month, I have been thinking I am "anxious."
However:
...troubled?
...worried?
...uncertain?
These adjectives do not describe how I feel at all! Maybe the word "eager" is more appropriate: "enthusiastic interest," "great desire." That's more like it.
Honestly, I have been eagerly waiting to see Sonny Moore, ex-From First to Last front man and current solo artist, in the flesh for more than four long years.
In two days, I will be blessed with the opportunity. I am attending his show in Baltimore.
(this is Sonny. I made the picture all cool looking.)
January 18:
Antoine de Saint-Exupery once said, "A goal without a plan is just a dream." In an hour and 35 minutes, my dream will turn into a goal. My plan will be in action. I will see...I will meet Sonny Moore.
The anxiety is setting in; my mind races.
"What if something goes wrong? What if he falls a little - a lot short - of my expectations? What if he turns out to be a complete jerk?"
My worst fear: I could meet him and just faint in dismay. I could just drop over dead from the fact that it's actually him.
OK. That was a little dramatic, but four years of waiting, the day is finally here!
January 19:
The show last night was two words: absolutely amazing! I saw Sonny for the first time when I was waiting outside the doors. He just walked right past me and all I could do was stare at him. I was in sheer astonishment.
When InnerPartySystem, the headliner, played, I casually looked around and saw Sonny standing against the wall!
This was my chance! My friends and I walked over. I made sure to tell him, "Happy belated birthday," and he graciously thanked me. He gave me a hug, posed for a couple pictures, conversed and gave me an autograph.
He was so kind, appreciative and just so cute!
Last night I learned two things: My life is now fulfilled and I truly am in love with Sonny Moore.
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